September 14, 2007

Musings of a Ballerina


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Time for another post. What shall I write about? I've nothing to complain about, nor anything to be passionate about. It's Friday and my weekend. Right now I have the Friday morning syndrome of idle body and idle mind. If I don't want the devil to win, I should publish this post, just as it has turned out, rather than abandoning it.

This morning, I catch myself with the "what if" pattern of thinking:

What if I had taken up arts instead of science to graduate in at college?
What if I were born in Antarctica, where I'd be one amongst less than 1,000 people?
What if I were a hermaphrodite? Which gender prison would I get sent to if I committed a crime?
What if I had intelligence enough to challenge, if not beat, the jurists, mathematicians and scientists of this world?
What if I had one hundred million dollars to spend?
What if I had taken up another profession?
What if I were able to control my laughter when tickled?

Why do these questions crop up? Is it the devil's mind at work again on a lazy Friday morning? Or is it mid-life crisis? As soon I became aware that the latter much abhorred-by-many factor might have something to do with the feelings, I immediately took an online quiz to check on it and the results showed - and I'm not at all surprised - that I suffer only 1% of the so called crisis. It said:

"It's very unlikely that you're experiencing a midlife crisis. You're content with your life and the direction it's taken, and you've accepted the choices you've made. You can discuss your future calmly and without any regrets for the past, and you maintain a positive outlook on aging."

So I'll presume I am enjoying life 99%. Boy, it did make me feel glad I am going in the right direction! That is if online quizzes are to be trusted. But then again, I don't need an online quiz to give me a boost. I can vouch for it with the way I feel about myself. I know, in general, I am still passionate about living and also, for a fact, that am feeling ultra lazy on this Friday morning.

I am not like that "type" of a woman who, at one stage in her life, feels she should rebel against time and believe in the urgent need to run to a fat-cropping doctor to have a figure like Kate Moss, or take up belly dancing to compete with Shakira, or some such unnecessary dare-devil activities to establish that the hips don’t need to be replaced, or buy a fur coat to provide evidence of the capability of affording it, or a plastic surgeon for Penelope Cruz looks, or to have an affair with a squash instructor to prove she is still desirable. No.

As for me, I am certain am swaying around with my life with the grace of a ballerina. I dance around uncertainties and pirouette around problems and very much feel in control with the choreography of my life.

*stretch*
If lazing on a weekend is part of enjoying life, go ahead and enjoy it to your heart's content. Have a great weekend folks.

15 comments:

Pijush said...

Oh Celine, what a post!! Very interesting what if questions, Have a nice weekend.

indicaspecies said...

pijush: Thank you. I am, in fact, having a nice weekend. :)

Ashu said...

Amazing way to start a weekend aha !!! What if, questions often fill you with fantasises, interesting and scary ones.

You capture it well. :)

GMG said...

Hi Celine,
Thanks for your comment on my blog.
I survived the Greek fires. Actually I was in the Islands (Kos, Crete and Mykonos) where there were no fires; only the island of Evia was somehow affected. I’m glad to be back and catch up your posts!
I still have your Trek post on my mind. What a beautiful site!!!
The questions on your post of today are quite interesting also...

As I’m late, my posts at Blogtrotter are still in Bali 2005. Hope you enjoy it, anyhow!
Have a great weekend!

indicaspecies said...

ashu: Thank you very much. Fantasies they are my dear, so do not fear. :)

gmg: Hey, good to have you back and thank you for dropping by. Looking forward to your pictures of Kos, Crete and Mykonos. Till then we shall enjoy Bali. :)

Neha Nair said...

hey celine ... you are proving to be a bad influence on me . I jus had plans to do some gardening but since u jus gave me ideas regarding how to relax on a weekend.. I've dropped that idea. :)

indicaspecies said...

neha nair: Neha, I am a positive influence on you. I'm helping you to decide just what you wish to do on a weekend, i.e., relax. Gardening can wait for another day. Enjoy your weekend ;)

Merisi said...

Here it is Saturday, noon, and I decided I had earned some leisure time after a hectic week. So you could me just in the right mood with your musings. I love them! :-)
Thank you for posting a comment on my blog, this gave me back your url, which I had lost (with many others) when I accidentally erased my favorites list. Just in time. :-)

annie said...

Hiya celine..Aging sounds scary to me!! Ahhhh that stage gotta come someday...but great u aren't circumventin in that thought process. Hope u had a fantab weekend in the land of Arabs.

indicaspecies said...

merisi: I am glad that the butterfly bush brought you here, and I am glad to see you here again.

Thank you for your kind words and you have an enjoyable weekend that you much deserve. :)

indicaspecies said...

annie: Greetings from the land of oil. Oh, there's no need to fear numbers. On the contrary its exciting to be aging gracefully. I had a good weekend and I hope you have a great one too. :)

Tejas said...

Good one C! I hope you are having a good weekend drinking oil :P

Vic Grace said...

Thanks for commenting on my blog. I have never been to Kuwait but I have been to some places in the Middle East. Lebenon and Iraq.

I think when you get older the what ifs are not so much about the past but the future, at least mine are. I

indicaspecies said...

tejas: Thank you tv. Yes, I've had a copious amount of olive oil on my 'tabbouleh' salad. :)

indicaspecies said...

vic grace: Thank for you dropping by. I've quite a few 'what ifs' of the past and taking your analysis into consideration, am glad about it. Btw, I've visited Lebanon and passed by Iraq too. :)